+- Mesalia Forums (https://www.mesalia.net/forum)
+-- Forum: Locked Threads (https://www.mesalia.net/forum/forumdisplay.php?fid=36)
+--- Forum: Archive (https://www.mesalia.net/forum/forumdisplay.php?fid=38)
+--- Thread: Xemnes~ (/showthread.php?tid=57)
Xemnes~ - Demotheus - 27-02-2013
OOC:
The note is written neatly on a page torn out of a book, a blank page though. It cannot be found IC unless a character who has it leaves it some place.
OOC END
Xemnes,
I can't talk to you about this in person because I can't think well on the spot. I need time to think, if that makes any sense. This is so I don't get upset, or angry when I try to voice it to you.
You are protective over me, but why? There is no need. And for you to try and control me, control what I do and how I've always done things hurts because I don't want to hurt you by not doing what you say.
Sometimes I think there are at least three people under that hood and robe, and behind that mask because I can't figure out how one man can worry about so much and so many trivial things that he shouldn't have to care about.
I am conflicted, I don't know what to do. You said that you don't know why I don't seem to listen to what you say, but I do. But what you say, and try to command to me doesn't make sense to me because no one has ever commanded me, and why I let you do it is unknown to even myself. I will not admit to having some deep seeded love for you. It is a little crush that I am unsure of, and growing more and more unsure of each time I speak to you, however rarely that is. Perhaps it is because I don't want someone who will try and dictate who I am, how I do things, and feel as if I am something that needs protection.
If I need to be protected then I shall ask for protection. I can not put this in any other way for you. I can not make it less blunt than this. When it comes to things that I know like the back of my hand I do not need, or want your help with them. I know what I am doing when it comes to survival.
I need a good friend and love, not a guardian.
~Daniella~
OOC: her signature is in handwriting, obviously.